I was hesitant to bring this prayer request forward as it is the third time since this past June 13th that I have submitted a prayer request for my unemployment situation. I was optimistic in my first prayer request submission and openly shared the difficult challenges that I have faced over the past five to six years and how God has led me through each of those trials from divorce, being diagnosed with a cancerous brain tumor, followed by surgery, radiation, and chemo, the passing of close family members, major house repairs, having emergency laser surgery to save the sight in my right eye, recently having internal bleeding due to a complication of an out-patient surgical procedure, and the list goes on….and then being let go from my job this past June. Having said that, God has been providing and has taken care of my roof that recently needed to be replaced and my central air that went out this spring was also replaced without any cost to me. I am thankful to him for his love and grace. However, to be brutally honest, the past five to six years have challenged my faith beyond comprehension. I know that God is sovereign, he is faithful, and he loves us. We live in a broken world and bad things will happen to us all. What I do know is that nothing comes into our lives that God is not aware of. James 1:2-4 says, "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." (NIV)
I have a few close friends that are aware of all of the trials that have come my way and they have been very supportive. Of course, I have questioned God as to why he has allowed these trials to go on for so long. I can't and don't blame God at all. In fact, my relationship with God is closer than it has ever been in my life since I chose to follow him at age twelve. It may sound foolish to say this, but in some ways my current unemployment situation feels more difficult than going through the brain tumor situation.
I don't know why God is allowing me to go through these difficult trials, but I have to continue to trust him and in his love. He must have a purpose in this. If I can borrow a familiar phrase…"I don't know what tomorrow holds, but I know who holds tomorrow." Proverbs 3:5-6. "Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight." (NIV).
I would appreciate your prayers as I continue to seek employment and trusting God to guide my steps. There is no better place to be than to be in the center of his will. – Thank you.
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